This Spring...

I haven't been able to spend evenings walking.  It's raining.  There are constant storm watches and warnings.  These photos were May 24th, I loaded up Pumpkin, Sister, and Ozzie and we went to the farm.  I've been wanting to take my macro lens out to check out the butterflies, but I found a dragonfly. 

May 24th 2015 Dragonfly -1

The internet and social media has been filled with a constant barrage of flooding photos. Constant storm watches and warnings  from morning to night.  Lake Waurika has went from 20% full to 100% full in a matter of a few weeks.   

May 24th 2015 Butterfly-1

I absolutely love the plant life with the rain, I'm seeing flowers that I've never noticed and it's just lush and beautiful.  My allergies though, pretty much make me have no energy to enjoy this greenery and the storms don't make me want to be far from home.  

May 24th 2015 wildflowers-1

I'm also trying to finish up my edits so I can be caught up before the June vacations.  But this spring is beautiful.  My poor dogs aren't getting much exercise.  

May 24th 2015 Loyal Dingo-1

My Pumpkin is all grown now.  She has her big dog bark now, I don't think you'd want to open my gate.  

Pumpkin and Sister May 24-1

Sister just loves water, she absolutely loves puddles.  She leaps into them and lays down.  She's so much fun.  

Pumpkin and Sister May 24-1-2

Feel sorry for my car.  Sister is my passenger.   Pumpkin found a dead Armadillo and rolled in it like it was the best  body lotion she'd ever smelled.   My car hasn't recovered yet.  

May 24 flowers-1-3

The dogs played and I played...  I enjoy photography.  I don't enjoy the stress of needing to rush through edits for people.   I find it amusing that so many of my portrait sessions are canceling worried about the weather and I use that as an excuse to go out and shoot in the weather they are concerned about.   

May 24th 2015 wildflowers-1-2

The trouble with playing with macro photography while the dogs are out playing in the fields is they want to play with me too. 

May 24th 2015 wildflowers-1-4

This is how I photograph flowers.  This is what happens when you sit down on the ground.  This is another reason why I find inspirational quotes on photos about peace and nature kind of dumb.  This is reality.  Happy dogs and wagging tails in your face, warm tongues licking your hands, face, legs or anything they can get near.  This is my reality.  

May 24th 2015 wildflowers-1-5

I absolutely love my Australian Cattle Dog (Red Heeler)- Pumpkin is the first dog I've had that can play fetch and drink water from the bottle. 

May 24th 2015 wildflowers-1-7'

I went inside my parents house for a snack (I mean that's what I do when I go's always good to go snack at Mom's house).  Pumpkin found the window I was sitting by and informed me that she was still outside and I was not. 

Butterfly May -1

I love this little 100mm macro lens.  This Tokina lens is half the cost of a Canon and the quality is amazing.   

Beautiful Oklahoma

Today is the second day in a row that I went to the gym and I went out and just shot photographs for fun.  So I feel better today.  Tomorrow I will return to the weight room and the machines and maybe the pool.  

20140827-IMG_5280Spider on white flower macro

This was with that nifty little 100mm macro -  the sun had set, I was sitting on the dam by the pond and saw this little bitty spider resting on the flower.  

20140827-IMG_5214Horse out on the range wm

Don't be one of these... 

So, I think portrait photography makes me negative.  I love shooting portraits for people, but it makes me very judgmental of other people's work.   Probably because every single time I'm mentioned as a suggestion as a photographer on the "Buy/Sell/Trade" pages - another twenty people are also suggested as potential portrait photographers.  Yet, I love looking at other people's photography.  So I started a page for people to post their beautiful Oklahoma photos.  I mean after all I've been posting Oklahoma photos here for over four years now.  I want to see other people's work.  Beautiful Oklahoma Group on Facebook-- so now I want to see  YOUR beautiful Oklahoma. 

20140827-IMG_5324Tractor and Rig WM

Oil rigs drilling, tractors... this is Oklahoma.  

20140827-IMG_5356Tractor and Rig wm

I love the 24/70 lens too. Wow.  Look at the bokeh from the rig!  

20140827-IMG_5376cat  & Rig_


20140827-IMG_5295Leaves at dusk

The sun had set...  and man, I still can shoot macro.  It's pretty awesome. 

20140827-IMG_5364Rig at night

20140827-IMG_5401What the Duck_

WHAT THE DUCK.  Yeah, the duck likes to sit under my carport and eat bugs as they go to the porch light.  Squawkers the duck.   

20140827-IMG_5381Rooster boy_

The Rooster says... turn those car headlights off, I'm trying to get some sleep.  



20140826-IMG_4979Hattop the Savannah _

I can't ever get everything straight.   So I go out and take photos.  

20140826-IMG_4986Hattop the Savannah _

So I have this, when I feel like nothing goes right.  

20140826-IMG_4991Barbed wire

I turned down another wedding today.  This is the third one I can't take because I'm booked.  I sure could use the money. I hate money. I hate the stress of being in debt.  

20140826-IMG_4988Oklahoma Summertime

I hate that my life after my Master's Degree has turned into my hobby being the thing that is making me a little money.  I don't want to be a meaningless cog in a corporate machine.  I want independent kids.  

20140826-IMG_5007Young Grasshopper

I'm restless.  

20140826-IMG_5015Young Grasshopper

It's still over 100 degrees out - but I took the cameras out anyways.  For a while this afternoon and this evening again.  It made me feel better. 

20140826-IMG_5065Grasshopper love

I'm just frustrated this evening.  I'm happy with the photos that I shot today.  The 100mm macro lens is incredibly cool.  The depth of field though is very small. 


I don't feel like I'm maximizing my abilities. 


I never wanted to be a photographer.  

20140826-IMG_5022Grasshopper on a hot day

My friend just said "I need to stop being scared" - in a discussion.  I do too. I've always been so trapped into the idea that I can only be a teacher.   That's all I can do.  Yet, there should be so much more.  

20140826-IMG_5116Wildhorse Creek outside of Velma

But if I start pursuing something lucrative, for me, using my skill set.  I would be "selfish"  - because it may lead me away. 

20140826-IMG_5146macro sunset_

I don't like feeling dependent when I know I can make $50,000 a year just by being in another state. It frustrates me and makes me angry. I don't like interviewing for jobs by people who are so unprofessional they don't have the common courtesy to tell me that I don't have the job. I don't like knowing that 8 years of teaching experience with a MA is not helping me get a teaching job. It seems counterintuitive. I'd think you'd want to hire an individual with more education and experience than less. 

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But I do enjoy a good sunset...

20140826-IMG_5139Sunflower sunset near Velma WM

Everything will be better tomorrow.  It always is.