I did a little night shooting while I was in Oklahoma. I did a lot of front porch sitting in Oklahoma this summer. I got divorced this spring, so I spent the summer at the farm with my parents and my sister. It was good. I need to spend time with my parents. I love the farm I missed it.
I miss my Oklahoma comfort zone. I can run around backroads at night and not worry.
This year has been a very different year. Difficult, I don't like being alone so much out here.
I've been back home in New Mexico for a couple of days now. I am in two worlds right now, a difficult transition. It is strange when you make a major life change, you lose your idea of what your future will be like. In a way my past was my future and not having my past, I don't have a future. It's a little disconcerting, not having a vision beyond the next school year. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing right now. I hope this feeling leaves me soon.